Knowing this was almost certainly going to be my last pregnancy and birth, I had lots of mixed feelings the past few months. I wanted to savor it, but being so busy with other kids and life made it hard. Plus, getting older and having 5 pregnancies in just over 7 years really took a toll on my body. I was tired. I felt like I was crawling to the finish line and felt like I had pretty much given up on every part of my life. I was stress eating, being lazy about taking the kids out, and not wanting responsibility. Still, I give myself an A+ for keeping the house pretty clean!
As my due date grew closer (April 18th), I started to feel a bit panicky. I didn't feel ready emotionally, physically, or mentally. There were still a bunch of projects around the house I wanted to get done and lots of organizing and preparing to do. I was really praying she wouldn't come early. As usual though, I ended up having plenty of time to prepare and I knew I was really ready when I just stopped caring about the to-do list and wished for contractions. I was also having some labor/birth anxiety. Davy's birth and postpartum period was fairly physically traumatic for me and I was afraid of repeating it. I was scared of the pain, even though I've been through it several times.
I decided having a home birth just didn't seem right this pregnancy. There was a wonderful birth center located next to Vanderbilt Hospital that seemed like it would be a good middle ground. I used a birth center with Donny and loved it! I liked the midwife group and nurses and they were always so accommodating to my kids during appointments.
So,…..
Two days before my due date (friday night), I woke up at 1 or 2 in the morning to contractions. They were not really patterned and were like 15-20 mins or more apart, but they were strong. They kept up through the night, some keeping me up and some I probably dozed through. They were gone in the morning and I had no other labor signs. The next night (saturday), it was the same story. Contractions at 2 am till morning and then gone. This is typical pre labor for me. My last 3 kids' labors were this way.
Sunday (my due date, April 18th), I decided to stay home from church. I had been up for much of the night with contractions and even though they stopped in the morning, I just felt like staying home. I took a nap mid-morning and when I got up after, I was pretty sure I was leaking amniotic fluid. (Fun fact! BOTH my other girls labors started with my water breaking!!) I called the midwife on call and she told me to come in to check it out. I texted Kevin at church and he gathered the kids and headed home. We had to find someone to watch the kids, so by the time we got to the birth center, it was around 3:00 pm. It was confirmed that I was leaking amniotic fluid and I was at about 2-3 cm dilated. No contractions, though. Since I'm strep B positive, I have to have antibiotics every 4 hours in labor, so we started the first dose at 4:00. Since nothing was happening and we had 4 hours till the next dose, we decided to go back home (with a hep lock in my arm) put the kids to bed, and return at 8 pm to stay the night at the birth center. We put the kids to bed, got a nighttime sitter, and headed back for the night, knowing within the next 24 hours or so, we'd have a baby! We settled into our comfy room and watched an episode of "Call the Midwife."
Arriving at the birth center:
Receiving first IV dose:
Watching "Call the Midwife" in bed. Would've been really nice had I not been so anxious!
After that we both decided it would be best to sleep while we can. My midwife came in to check periodically, but mostly let us rest until the next IV dose at 12:30 am. I didn't do much sleeping. I was still not showing much sign of labor and I was beginning to get nervous that an induction was in my future. If I was not in active labor by 24 hours, I would need to transfer to Vanderbilt for an induction. We would probably try some natural methods first, but I wasn't looking forward to that either. Finally, like the previous 2 nights, around 2 am, I started having strong contractions, about 20 mins apart. I notified my midwife and sat around playing card games on my phone between contractions. I let Kevin sleep since I knew I'd need him later. They were far apart, but strong enough that I had to stand up and breath through them.
(I'm including this handy-dandy labor chart that my midwife sent me. I had to refer to it while writing, this since I had no concept of time. I thinks its really cool seeing all her notes and all the medical stuff that I didn't notice going on. It's printed backwards, so you have to start at the bottom and read up. )
Finally, around 4 am, I started having stronger contractions about 8 mins apart. I was groaning/moaning through them and having Kevin rub my lower back. My midwife suggested trying a hands/knees position on the bed in case baby was needing to get into a better position for birth and to help with back labor. It felt great on my back and I was so comfy. The only problem was that I was so comfy, my contractions slowed! While it was nice having a "chill" labor, I knew we really needed to get somewhere, No pain, no gain!At around 4:30, we decided to try breaking my water the rest of the way to see if it would get my contractions stronger and more consistent. I was 5-6 cm dilated when she broke my water, which sort of surprised me cause I wasn't in a ton of pain. That seemed to do the trick!
By 5 am, I was finally having very strong, regular contractions. I had planned all along to try using nitrous oxide for pain (Vanderbilt Hospital offers this too!) so I decided to give it a try. It didn't do much at first, but I noticed it made me feel less anxious during contractions. I'm not sure it really took much of the pain away, but it did help me relax. I sat on the birthing ball and leaned on the side of the bed for a while, using the gas intermittently. I think Heather, my midwife noticed a change in my moaning and noticed me drifting into la la land and knew I was getting close to pushing.At about 6:30 she had me lay on the bed. I could tell I was going to feel like pushing soon and I was scared. I HATE PUSHING. It's the worst sensation for me. At first, I wanted to use the gas while pushing so I could relax and push slowly. I have a bad habit of pushing like crazy to get it over with and end up tearing really badly. All 4 kids I tore. I just wasn't pushing effectively with the gas, so I stopped the nitrous and tried to follow my midwife's instruction. At some point between contractions, I opened my eyes to see 2 midwives and 2 nurses standing around me. Not even sure when they arrived as I had had my eyes closed for a while. I said, "Oh, hello everyone!" and kept pushing. At first I pushed side lying, then they had me move to my back. All of my other natural births were done in the water, so this was new! Heather was doing all sorts of things to keep me from tearing and having me stop and breathe (as opposed to screaming my head off) while pushing. I am a yeller. A couple times she told me to stop screaming and breathe. I warned them all, but I don't think they expected all the screaming at the end, haha!!
At 6:58 she was out!! I can't even tell you what a relief it was to have her out. I went from screaming in pain, to screaming in pure joy. I literally screamed and laughed and cried all at once when they laid her on my tummy. She screamed too! A first, since none of my others came out crying.
I seriously cannot express how good it felt to have her out. I don't know why I have become such a wimp with birthing, but I seem to get more wimpy each baby! Why do I do this to myself??
After a few minutes, Kevin finally cut the chord and I was able to really hold her and inspect her.
Another miracle- NO TEARS!!!! I couldn't believe it when my midwife checked, but for the first time, no tears! I cant tell you the difference that has made for my physical recovery. As for Lyda-Rose, she weighed in at 7 lb 3 oz (after she had breastfed twice) and 20 inches. Smaller than I had expected, since I got soooo fat this pregnancy. She came out hungry and nursed like a champ from the start.
We were free to go home 4-6 hours after her birth. After all the necessary checks, a meal, and a nice nap, we left at around 2ish. We grabbed some Five Guys burgers on the way home and I went straight to bed. The kids were dropped off by some friends a little while later (they spent all day with friends). The nurse came by in the morning for the 24 hour checkup, and my mom came in the afternoon.
So far, Rosie has been an extremely sweet, easy baby. She sleeps pretty well at night (for now at least) and is generally content as long as people are around, preferably holding her. She loves noise. She sleeps very soundly when a lot is going on. She must know she's a 5th child! Oh, how thankful I am for this sweet baby!!

















































